Was meaning to not go to work and slack at home.. But end up really sick.. Had fever.. Sigh.. Did not really eat much today.. Cos got no appetite.. Slept almost the whole day through.. Met up with go today.. drove his daihatsu car (the one similar to my bro's new car).. not really driver friendly.. But interesting car though.. gotta step on the clutch before you can start the car.. hehehe..
Felt restless the whole day.. really no mood.. think i'll get depression if this continues.. Have started to realise that all my friends are almost preoccupied with their own programmes.. For those who are not really preoccupied.. are all at home.. lazing on front of the computer..
I've started to realise that I'm getting more and more grouchy these days.. getting fed up over minor things very easily.. Then if things cropped up.. i'll get anxiety attacks very easily too.. Sometimes I really feel that how nice it would be if I could return to campus to study full-time.. It's really exhausting to have to work and study at the same time.. It's true..take my word for it.. Initially.. when school has just started.. You would definitely think that you could handle it and that everything is in your control.. But as time past, you would realise that this is
NOT TRUE at all.. especially when you start to realise that workload is getting heavier in office.. job scopes are getting more demanding and on the other hand, you have tons of schoolwork waiting at home for you and submission deadlines are around the corner.. Talking about that.. I stil have 3 assignments due next week.. and I have not started on it yet.. OMG.. *must concentrate*
Talking about the hates of my life.. The top hate is that I have friends, who simply don't reply to sms messages and ppl who don't pick up phone calls.. Really really hate it.. I have had many bad experiences with ppl as such before.. and these ppl, either you can consider it fortunate or unfortunately, I have already decided to not be on talking terms with them and have not kept in touch for a long time. There used to be this friend of mine, let's call her Ms. X, she's one of a kind. Whenever she needs your help, she expects you to be sitting there, waiting for her to run to you for help. But when she don't need your help or when you need her help, you can expect to call her for days, many times a day, but she would not reply any of your calls or any of your messages at all. Coincidentally, I came across this quote by Lord Samuel "A friend in need is a friend to be avoided".. Didn't it used to be a 'A friend in need is a friend in deed'? Or have the society changed to become such an ugly world out there that lending a hand is no longer seen..?
Taking a step back, look at all the past few incidences that has made use of people's compassion and kindness and in turned have turned in scandals of corruption, embezzlements and lies of many so-called charity bodies. First we had NKF, the we had the youth challenge (or sth close to that, can't really remember). Then now, the latest, is the Ren Ci. This was supposed to be the most charitable and honest one as it's headed by a Venerable Monk. However, things have happened otherwise. This has, however, turned into the biggest and dirtiest embezzlement in Singapore. Even NKF was no where near the embezzled amount.
Let's take a real look around and see if there's really anyone worth trusting and also worth your friendship. Time for medication.. That'll be all for today..
This is Lydy.. She looks happy.. But actually the bowl of laksa was horrible.. extremely terrible.. We were just talking about of the situation in office.. horrible.. Poor Lydy, she's been working till really late recently.. so late until she has no time for Grace and Joyce AGAIN... P.S. Lydy.. Must take care of yourself ok?
